This world of blogging is sooooo interesting. There are opinions about how you should do everything. The thing is that people are well-meaning, but what worked for them doesn’t mean it will work for the next person. There are hundreds of ways to do one thing. And it can be so daunting and overwhelming.
When I first launched this blog, I had spent months researching how to get this blog started and how to build followers and exposure and such. And the more I began to blog, the more I kind of found my footing. I took what I learned and began to apply it to my blog. I saw success in some respects which made me excited. I started to apply these things and try to add my spin to them and get comfortable in them.
Then last week, I hit a snag. I had February all mapped out. I had a theme and knew what I wanted to write about each week. But when it came time to sit down and write, I had no inspiration. I had no desire to write. I just felt blah. I told a friend of mine, Krystal (check out her blog btw. #ShamelessPlug) that I was in a content funk. I just couldn’t get it out.
To be completely honest, I’ve had a rough couple of weeks. Life just smacking me upside the head. Meh. It happens, but it’s still emotionally draining. Then add to that the fact that I just couldn’t write. I would open my computer and put my hands on the keyboard and nothing would come out. NOTHING. FRUSTRATING!
I prayed a little bit, but mostly I wallowed in my lack of inspiration. I even toyed with the idea of quitting. “Maybe I missed God. Maybe this isn’t what I was supposed to be doing.” Have you ever felt like that? Just that what God called you to do wasn’t it? That you missed Him? Struggling with feelings of inadequacy is something I deal with OFTEN. I have to constantly submit it to God, knowing that ANYTHING I do is done in His strength. It’s always a tough pill to swallow, but in the end, that reminder is medicine to my soul.
In the middle of my pity party, the voice of God broke in. I love how sometimes He’ll just whisper a thought into my head and it really changes my whole perspective. Sometimes it’s comforting and other times He gets my life ALLLL the way together. This was one of those times that He got my life together. He simply said to me “You’re stuck because you’re not doing it the way I told you to do it.”
I struggled so much in writing because I wasn’t doing something that is natural to me. It wasn’t the way God gave it to me to do. Nothing I was doing was bad, but there’s a difference between what’s good and what’s God! And what other people do is good, but it’s not for me. It may work just fine, but if I’m using someone else’s God-given strategy, it’s not going to work for me.
This reminded me of David. I love David. In addition to Jesus, David is one of my 2 favorite Bible people. Paul is the other, but I’ll save that for another time. David is my homie. I feel like I could hang out with David and it would always be a great time. I also feel like David would just get me. We’re like the same person!
One very familiar Bible story is about when David killed Goliath. If you grew up in church, you know this story, but for those who didn’t, here’s how it went. (This is totally about to be a Brittany paraphrase. To get the true and accurate Biblical account, look at 1 Samuel 17)
David was a shepherd. He wasn’t a warrior like the others, but his job was to tend to the sheep. One day, David’s people were threatened by the Philistines. And the Philistines didn’t play fair. They sent in a giant to fight on their side. A real-life fee-fi-fo-fum giant. Goliath was 9 feet, 9 inches tall. Talk about intimidation tactics. David’s brothers were out to battle when the giant came to challenge the Israelites. So David’s father sent David to the field to take them lunch. He really wanted David to spy on them and make sure they were alive.
Pause. Apparently not much was happening because I’m not about to take lunch into the heat of battle. Unpause.
David heads to the battlefield (or lack-of-battle field!) and when he gets there, he sees the giant. Goliath was taunting the Israelites and they were all terrified. Shaking in their boots. David looks around at all of these warriors like, “Seriously?!? You guys are going to let this dude intimidate the army of the LORD?”
A lot of other stuff happened and was said (Seriously. Read 1 Samuel 17) but I want to skip ahead. David wasn’t afraid so he decided to fight Goliath. When he decided to step in, EVERYONE else had an opinion for him. Some said he was too young. Others said he was just a shepherd. Some people cheered him on.
But this is what I want to focus on.
Vs 37-38 Saul said to David, “Go, and may the Lord be with you.” Then Saul had his own military clothes put on David. He put a bronze helmet on David’s head and had him put on armor.
Wait. David wasn’t a warrior. Yet he was wearing armor. It makes sense that if you’re going into battle that you should wear armor. Logically that seems like the right thing to do. To follow the strategies of those who have experience. Of course, David would wear Saul’s armor.
But what happened next spoke to my SOUL!!!!
Vs 39-40 “I can’t walk in these,” David said to Saul, “I’m not used to them.” SO DAVID TOOK THEM OFF. Instead, he took his staff in his hand and chose five smooth stones from the wadi and put them in the pouch, in his shepherd’s bag. Then, with his sling in his hand, he approached the Philistine.
David chose to use what he knew. He did things the way God had shown him. I believe that the success of David was only because he didn’t do it the way that he thought was right, but he used the God strategy that was given to him. David had spent time with God on the mountain as a shepherd. He had learned how to use the weapons that God had given him during his quiet times with the Lord. And it was because David chose not to go the way of others that when he took a rock and put it in that sling that he was able to knock Goliath upside his head and defeat him.
I say all of this to say that I can’t do things the way others do them. They don’t fit me. And I will never be successful if I try to do it any other way. I want to follow God’s prescribed method for me. That’s it. That’s all.
What about you? Where are you struggling, trying to do things that may make sense but aren’t God’s best for you? Have you learned how to be comfortable doing things God’s way? I want to hear from you! Comment below!
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