I can’t even tell you how long it took me get to this point in my life. I’m honestly still working through by making a choice every day. But I’m learning to embrace who I am. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m getting more comfortable in myself now that I’m in my 30s, but all I know is I’m at the point where I am who I am and I don’t want to hide it anymore.
I spent so much of my life dealing with fear and rejection. As a result, I would hide who I am because I was afraid of what people would think. And as I’m in a season where God is revealing me more and more who He called me to be and what He called me to do, the fear tries to creep up from time to time.
When I saw The Greatest Showman, I instantly fell in love with this movie. Not only am I a sucker for a great musical, but this movie was just magical from beginning to end! My friends and I left the theater totally enamored with everything about the movie. There was one part that captured my heart and completely articulated everything for me. It’s a song called “This Is Me.”
In this song, the character sings
“When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I’m meant to be, this is me
Look out ’cause here I come
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me”
This is exactly the essence of how I feel. As God is breaking me out of my self-induced shell, I emphatically say I’m not scared to be seen for who God made me to be. I fully embrace all of it. And I refuse to apologize. I will boldly stand in it and live it out to the fullest.
THIS IS ME!