Dealing with Depression

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Anyway, I’m writing with a reason today.

Have you ever dealt with depression? Like a tormenting depression. Or like an inexplicable heaviness? That was me. Yesterday was a series of unfortunate events and somewhere in the midst of the events, I just began to feel blah. Usually, when things go left, I generally am optimistic. I can see the good part, pivot and adjust. But yesterday, I just got in a funk. I figured I was tired and brushed it off. I decided to watch a Disney movie that cheers me up and go to bed. (If you’re curious, I watched Secret of the Wings. I dig Tinkerbell movies!)

I woke up this morning and I was okay for probably about 30 minutes then I just felt weird and heavy again. My usual disposition was just off. And it was like that all day. My chest was tight and I felt like I could cry at any moment. I felt like Eeyore.

I don’t know how to explain it, but I just felt disconnected. I knew something was wrong. I had glimmers of things being normal, but then the looming feeling would return and I just felt cruddy. Just a bad bad mood. All day.

It took me a whole 24-hours before I got fed up. I knew it wasn’t just something that sleep would cure. I tried that. Or my favorite food. I tried that. Or my favorite TV show. Tried that. Or going outside. Did that. Or talking to a friend. I didn’t want to do that. NONE OF THAT WAS GOING TO CUT IT.

I knew that the only way I would be able to get free was through prayer. But what do you do when you can’t even pray? What do you do when you can’t find the words to say? How do you break free?

*ENTER THE HOLY SPIRIT*

Scripture tells us in Romans 8:26-27 that the Holy Spirit helps us when we don’t know what to pray.

²⁶And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. ²⁷And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will.
Romans 8:26-27 NLT

When there are no words to pray, the Holy Spirit prays for us. And the beautiful thing is that Him, being God, knows what what is in line with God’s will for us and even when we don’t have the words, He always says the right thing.

When I was being tormented by the spirit of depression and I had no words to say, when I couldn’t identify it or even name it, the Holy Spirit stepped in for me. When I got tired of feeling down and overwhelmed, I had to lean into the Spirit of God.

But in my distress I cried out to the Lord;
yes, I prayed to my God for help.
He heard me from his sanctuary;
my cry to him reached his ears.
Psalm 18:6

As I began to literally groan out, the Spirit came in to do the work for me. Once I yielded, He helped me release whatever was trying to overtake me. I began to feel so much better. My chest wasn’t tight and I could take a deep breath which I hadn’t done all day. I felt the peace of God wash over me. I am beyond grateful for the freedom that I find only in Jesus Christ.

I don’t know if you deal with depression, but whatever plagues and torments you, you can be free of it. You don’t have to allow it to haunt you for another day. Christ died so that we can experience freedom.

I had to shut the door on the spirit of depression that tried to overtake me and the only was I was able to do it was through the name, the power and the authority of Jesus. I don’t know why I wrote this or why you read it, but I want you to know that freedom is yours for the taking. Jesus is still setting people free and it’s available to you, only through Him.

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I love and care for you deeply and pray that you truly experience the love and freedom of Christ.